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| Brian's being unnaturally awesome.
I won't keep my hopes up.
<3
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And though love is a drunk,
sleeping off its hangover in the gutters between the years,
you need to smile at the bitch anyway.
Love is needing someone.
Love is putting up with someone’s bad qualities
because they somehow complete you.
And it’s not “clever lonely” (like Morrissey)
or “interesting Lonely” (like Radiohead);
it’s “lonely, lonely,”
like the way it feels when you’re being hugged by someone
and it somehow makes you sadder.
I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much, talks too much,
takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often,
lacks self-control, loves and hates,
hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises,
laughs and cries.
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now
And maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday.
If I have learned anything in life,
it is that sometimes things get in your path
and you have a choice:
you can either smash right into them,
or you can adjust and move around,
but you have to do one or the other in order to move forward.
-Gossip Girl
When you've finally found someone good,
don't go looking for someone better.
^Things I learned too late #1.
For lack of better words to say,
all I said was goodnight.
Once again. In self defense I won’t sleep a wink,
to prevent dreaming of you.
No sir, well, I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore. It's your turn, so take a seat, we're settling the final score. & why do we like to hurt so much? I can't decide. You have made it harder just to go on & why, all the possibilities where I was wrong.
( That's What You Get ; Paramore )
I guess I should say thank you,
for cutting all my strings.
But if it's all the same to you,
I wish you'd left my wings.
It's funny, I can't tell you how many times I spent wondering when
I was gonna hear you say that again. Just hoping that the next time
the phone would ring, it'd be you calling to say those words.
And now you're here and I can't even remember why I needed to
hear them. You should recognize this next move,
you perfected it, it's called turning my back and leaving you behind.
- One Tree Hill
Because in love, there's no such thing as halfway.
^Hell yeah.
And when I tell you I love you I mean that you can make my heart ache in places deep inside of myself, and at the same time make it sing more beautifully than can be described. I mean that you can give me life or take it away from me. You are my complete happiness and my misery.
You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering,
that's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe
you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself
the same way. Those are risks. That's the burden. Like wings,
they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they
are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly.
-Bones
I have a favour to ask, I'm hoping it's not too much. After all, you said you'd always be there for me, so, here it goes: Don't like her. Don't pick her. Don't be with her. Anyone but her. It hurts me too much. & if I could possibly fit one more thing in there if it is okay with you, maybe, just maybe, do you think you could fall for me?
( My Best Friend's Wedding )
i bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? yeah, i know that. i know what it is not to feel like you're in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know you're with him. you're his.
(c) p.s. i love you
Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You're always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it's enough to break your heart.
-The Notebook
The plan was to let me down gently. I know the game was to call it temporary. Boy, be careful what you wish for 'cause you might get that & so much more. I won't shed a tear if you don't want me. Boy, I'll give you space in the closet where my clothes should be, in that empty bed without me. Now I'm walking out the front door; you got exactly what you asked for. Space in your phone where it said my name, where I took my picture out your frame. & I won't be around when you figure out you got exactly what you asked for.
( Space ; Melody Thornton )
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| Hell yeah.
My heart was beating out of my chest.
And when they announced second place was SF...I was so very happy.
I don't think I've ever been that excited in my life...except maybe after being named drum major.
Atlantic Coast Champions...
Seeing the looks on all their faces...
It was all worth it.
Every sacrifice, all the crap I took...it was all for them.
I've never been so proud of anyone in my life...or loved anyone more...than them.
And, sometimes, I feel loved too. :]
Sometimes, I feel like I might be missed.
Sometimes, I feel like I might be remembered.
And I feel like I might've impacted at least one person's life. Maybe?
And for that...I love them even more.
I love the motley crue of friends I know I have.
Even though they're from totally different ends of the spectrum...and we probably all would never be able to hang out together.
The number of friends I believe I have fluctuates with my mood.
Perhaps it will become more clear after the breakup.
Whatever way, I'm excited for my future.
<3
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| The lightning hasn't stricken me down yet, though I know the day will come.
Brian is a jerk. But what else is new?
I seriously need to move on...
Since I can't think of a good name for that other guy I always talk about...I suppose I can just call him other guy...OG (or OPERA GHOST lolololol. <3)
OG always hangs around this one girl. Or maybe it's vice versa. He certainly doesn't act like he acted around me, so it could very well be vice versa. And the fact that that girl barely forces a smile when she sees me anymore...when we used to get along quite well...makes me think that maybe something's going on there.
But I don't WANT something to be going on there. I have no right to, but I really DON'T.
We have been talking a little more, OG and me, but not consistently.
There are times when he has that old look in his eye...and the voice that I never hear him use, even with his new friends.
Even with that girl.
Though, there are also times when he looks at me like a deer in headlights...
So idk.
Being realistic, I think I have a .01%.
Woo.
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| Like. Seriously.
How has a bolt of lightning from the heavens NOT struck me down yet?
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